The Guinns: baby guinn!!!

as you may or may not know-- september 19th has always been a big deal for guinn and i-- in '98 it was our first date, in 2003 it was our 5 year anniversary and also the day that trey proposed. just last year we celebrated 10, making this 11. we didn't really do anything big although we did get the best news of our life.

i had taken a pregnancy test that showed what, to me, was an extremely ambiguous result. i ended up calling my dr and letting her know that i may be pregnant but wasn't sure. since the office is walking distance from our house they had me come in and take a blood test.

i didn't tell trey that i was going because i knew that if for some CRAZY reason i truly was pregnant i wanted to tell him in some sort of grand fashion.

i marched into the dr's office...preparing myself the whole way that i'm probably not really pregnant so not to get too excited. i was so happy to see my favorite little christian nurse inside who told me that she had been praying that trey and i would get pregnant in God's timing. i was so happy she was on duty!

the whole trying to get pregnant is kind of an emotional rollercoaster that is completely out of your control...especially when you try for several months. all that to say, a lot of self talk is necessary when a new month rolls around and you're are set to find out 'am i or am i not'? i had begun assuming not, which is why this whole possible positive result was really throwing me for a loop on that coaster.

anyway, my little nurse friend sat me down and said, "so you think you're pregnant?" i said, "actually, i don't think i'm pregnant but i know that if for some reason i am i might have to start progesterone so i didn't want to chance it" she drew my blood and i sat there for 10 minutes waiting for the result. again, praying and telling myself that either way is fine. don't get excited...it's more than likely negative. i can handle it.

and then it happened. she said, "julee, congratulations-- YOU'RE PREGNANT!" i cried and cried and cried. i'm not usually much of a crier but a. i had just heard the best news of my life, and b. my hormones were apparently racing.

i got back in my car and sat there and cried and praised the Lord for this most exciting day!

after i pulled it together, i just kept thinking--trey has no idea that tonight i am going to rock his world with the best news of his life. he has been MORE than ready for baby guinn.

so here's the quick-- i wrote him a letter going through our 11 years together.... 11 years ago, 10 years ago...all the way down to and this year is the year of BABY GUINN. blah blah blah. piper was sporting a little fleece that read big sister (a little joke between guinn and i since we pretty much view her as our first child), and then of course a celebration beer in a bottle ;o)